Start With A Stong & Persistant Desire
PanicI dunno what’s going on at the moment. Iv lost my head, I don’t know what to do with my self & I feel like I have lost all hope for some reason.
Im in a rut, & cant get out. Not even music is helping me. The time where I feel happiest at the moment is when im sleeping, because I can dream of a better tomorrow, even if it is just all in my head.
I guess im kinda feeling disconnected a bit because I miss my friends & cousins. Every day is an adventure when im with them, but being at home away from them is a real downer. Trust me, if I had the money & the time, I would be with them in a heart beat.
Im slowing down on my photography at the moment as I want to try & do more portrait stuff.
Sorry, none of this is exactly happy
I know your supposed to make the best of what you have, but when you feel this shit (scuse me language) what the hell are you supposed to do?
Sorry if im making any of you depressed.
I hope im back to my normal self soon, cos I don’t like myself when im like this.
Hey, ho, life always gets better, right? I guess you have to try & put things right if your unhappy. However that might work out
By the way, whats the weather like where you are? Strange weather here
Deviants you must visit:
Iv chosen my deviation of the month/week. I might do this weekly, I dunno.
Ok, iv chosen 3 this time:
‘Escape Your Past’ by
which is awesome [link]'Aunt Sam & The Panda' by
Which is so awesome I want it as a painting!! 
[link]& ‘Chip & Dale??’ by
which is sooo cute, cos they’re Racoons! [link]Hope everyone is cool. If your pissed off & depressed or one or the other, please feel free to share your pain! But keep on smiling, & il try too
Peace: 
Devious Comments
Anyways, just wanted to let ya know yer not alone in the way yer feeling right now.
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«L'ordre est le plaisir de la raison mais le désordre est le délice de l'imagination.»
I know what you mean. I lost it last tuesday, & then went totally bad this week.
I know it sounds totally insane, but sitting outside & watching bee's is quite relaxing. I watch them collect pollen & buzz around. It makes you think about what they do & all that, & helps you kinda forget for a while about your own life.
What also doesnt help is that i dispise my family sometimes, & really dont get along with them. Its like they hardly even know me, so i just dont care & get depressed.
The thing is i put people before me, i am too nice sometimes. I dont like being an angry, self centred person, cos i see what other people are like & i go 'i never want to be like that'. But sometimes you have to be like that.
But most of all just got to be true to yourself
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I dont really get on with my family except for one of my sisters & i will really miss her when she moves, she is like the peace keeper in my house.
Your work is very very good, & i understand about things killing creativity. When i was in college, i completely lost all my creativity for my Art A level cos the class & how we were taught was aweful.
Thats when i turned to photography once again & have been doing it ever since then
Now you have started your art journal, you can rant & rant & rant as much as you like about anything you like & all your followers will read it, comment & chat to you etc.
Its a great way to share connections with people & you get people who feel the same way, & just when you think you dont have a connection to anyone, you will feel connected to the people who share your pain, or a similar pain & people who adore your very creative & lovely work
I hope you feel better soon as well
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Hope You feel better today...
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«L'ordre est le plaisir de la raison mais le désordre est le délice de l'imagination.»
I am a little better today thankyou
I got to see my best friend last night so im quite happy at the moment
Hope your ok
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I'm just like you. i always put others before me, to nice for my own good etc etc. always believe in do unto others as you would have others do unto you and all that but seems as if living by that motto just ends up giving me the shaft in the end. ya know?
I have a lot of motto's tho, lol.
Same, i have less & less friends it seems, but its the ones who are always there that count. There is always a few good ones, even if you dont see it yet, or they may not be in your life yet, but hang on cos someone will show up eventually.
Iv learnt that i shouldnt depend on anyone but myself because i have been let down in so many ways, too often, so its always best if you look out for you
Im feeling a lot happier now dispite a lot of shit i am having to deal with at the moment.
Cheer up, things will get better soon
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